The Firmament of my Feeling

I might just know what I want to research upon. Okay, not really. I am just ranting. I need some sort of data-storing medium in my brain that registers the spontaneous phases that I spew out in the middle of an emotional crisis, and I do not have a pencil/pen/computer at hand. Cuz, now, after an hour or two since the storm has subsided, I feel numb.

Side-note: It's also pathetic to realize that I become numb and emotion-less so quickly. And will that change? I don't think so.

Bordering on the edge of insanity and dream-like illusions, we place our bets and our beliefs are strengthened. Rather our faith, is given a head-shot. A place in the materialistic realm of hard-hitting scientifically proven facts. Fidgeting and grudging, our desires and wishes. Forwarding glances, and mystified gazes. Surreal and Real. Blinding lights and darkening alliances. Gnawing innards and syphoning intellectually draining neurosis to the world outside.

The Firmament of my Feeling

Dumb and with a neurotic twist

To the tales of the Divine

And to the tales of your worldly design

Of little specks of insurmountable pain and malaise

I am forever circling this green labyrinth of rose bushes

A hearty clench on a beastly beauty

Beastly, because you lie underneath

A weight, a stone-like resistance to fate

Toreador noises, some music in places unknown

Grasping vivid images, and eloquent phrases

Implying ingenuity, archaic simplicity

In Heavens, I have seen, your footsteps abound

Hailing from the mountains above

From white fairies and angels' love

Fresh from the firmament aura

In this day, and time, the demons might come

To vanquish sins, in retaliation 

To construe white from the red

I need a hand and a promise

A story and an end

With your tears rolling down into oblivion

And with my worry and emotions hitting boulders

Lobbying sides, and gut-wrenching feelings

To your aid, I come and clean the bones

Your feast is over

Your scene is done

My turn to look over

My feelings to burn

Let the dream be over

Let reality take run.

(6th February, 2012)