The Fictions: Part I

As the name suggests. this is part of a series...where I will explore a part of reality while thinking about a situation that does not exist - hence the 'fiction' :)
Do not know how many parts this will culminate into, but for now, let this suffice...

The Fictions - Part I

That flicker in the eyes
That light in the sky
When you walk alone
Thinking not about the ground you trod on

Thinking instead of the days gone by
The shady memories, the vibrant past

A little addition here and there
A simple sentence that you said
Made me stare
Stare long enough to forget

Das ist Spark Update :D

And here we go again :D

*Charray*

~ When I'll reach for the stars
When I'll have a reason to smile
Winds swishing my glory far and wide
When I'll be my own story and words
Don't come asking then for a path, for a word, I won't
Let me see, in peace, let me achieve
When I'm done, let me be in peace.

~ Let's pretend to love, and share
Give in to the words spoken often
The warmth, joy and sweet volleys of words
Let's pretend we feel those
And live wondering what went wrong.

~ Given the flowering blooms
Oceans, dreams seen about them
I know you wonder about them
Wonder more intensely than me, when I experience
Its just that you fail to tell me
Its just that you fail to be you
Its just that the world scares you

My smiles: The facades

All that I am proud of, in this composition, is that I wrote it while experiencing it :)
And that makes all the difference in the world.

My smiles: The facades

So I put on that plastic smile everytime you look at me
Without any expression; without any contempt
Everytime I see a whimper
A crack in the face
A dejection, life wasting you away
Every single word; act and pain fading you

And I smile through the Summer breeze

A feeling of guilt and unexplainable bliss even when I write this down. I am smiling just at the pretentious nature of my utopian existence in this specific composition. I wish it was true, yes. But its not, I know that.

And I smile through the Summer breeze

The Summer breeze swinging in through the window
A lonely seat perched up near it
I sit and think of the night I spent
Spent in pretension, words and dreams

Gazing towards the white horizon
The Sun bathing the landscape, still
A momentary stillness, a plethora of emotions welling up

And I want you to cross the bridge sometimes

It is not in my hands to control you, or say something that would actually influence your behavior towards me. But I do wonder, and I do think of what you mean to me. I would be a fool to not judge you. I should be questioned for the idiotic thoughts I am attaching with you, but just for once accept the fact that what I think is idiosyncratic. What I believe to be myself, is different from the perceptions you have about me. Maybe because you don't know me that deep within. Its such a sad fact, but yes you don't. I wish you would. I wish I could let you. I wish.

And I want you to cross the bridge sometimes

A thousand words spoken, heard and lived
A million tunes played, heard and felt
A barricade of emotions that are felt, heeded to and conveyed

Scores to Settle

I don’t always get inspired by what happens to me. My utopia-my mind, it takes me to places. I have visions, dreams and desires. And in those dreams, and imaginations, things happen. Sometimes my words are reflection of those incidents. Never happened, but seen through a certain perspective from the inner dimensions of my mind, and they mean a lot somehow. Maybe because, I associate them with people who are very close to me.

Scores to Settle

Frowning faces, muddled expressions
Your face offers a smile, I don’t want

Feeling helpless, annoyed and surrounded
Your words offer an explanation, I don’t want

Halt
Evade
Settle and surface

The Aftermath of a huge Spark Update

Okay so, this has happened two times: Whenever there is a huge Spark Update[like this previous one here], another short one follows quickly :P
So, here it is :D

As per tradition, here comes the serious stuff:

*Charray*

~ And I never wanted to let you know
Know about the feelings and emotions
I never wanted to let you feel me
I did not want you to see me
But you defeat me
And surround me. I forgive you
You were meant to be me.

I Sense You (in me)

Even little thoughts of trickling water can generate a whole stream of imaginative illusion. A beautiful feeling that trespasses the actual meaning of the moment. 

I Sense You (in me)

Like the trickle of water

Like the stars that shine

Like the moon that smiles down at you

Like the flowers that bloom

Like the showers of rain that release you

Free you of your worries

And pain

Your sense of comfort

Your peace and your words of solace

Your sense of wonder

And your signs of surrender

To the beauty of the water trickling down

The Pearl Shall Know Soon

If someone who reads it and can understand what it talks about, then I pray peace to the reader.

The Pearl Shall Know Soon

A pearl in the ocean

Waves crashing onto it

Water oozing into its glory

Weeds creeping over its surface

Critters lavishing on its base

It was a star before they knew it

It was a beautiful flower before they plucked it

It was a sweet melody before they played it

It was everything before they knew it

I am the same: Amna Siddiqui

Now that I have got time to think and set my priorities straight, there is something I have been meaning to say and something that I need to document in order to actually realize how important it is for me.

Needless to say, the formulation of this fact already started in between the papers. The mind doesn’t stop thinking, does it? :)

Some very random and interesting conversations with friends can leave you changed. They give you a new outlook on life, a new perspective on things. Like something that had been there all along but I somehow failed to see or appreciate it.

Its not even funny

1 o' clock in the morning BEFORE your final CIE Biology Paper. You decide to do a paper. Tired, frustrated and dejected. You want to jump off the roof because of the whole freaking out/cramming-like-crazy schedule.
With a final determination to actually get done with the paper once and for all, you open the paper. And *this* is what you encounter on your first page:

Haye Allah mein mar gayi! :O

Now imagine that this was THE actual paper. You are already freaked out before the exam. And if you are a girl, well, chances are you'll let out a mini-scream at this. I mean, the suddenness and sheer stupidity of this is pissing me off. 

WHO PUTS SUCH A PICTURE ON THE FRONT PAGE OF THE PAPER?!

Haha. This is going to be fun.

So today's Spark Update, as usual, sparked up long conversations about its implications and what not. One of the regular sparky people gave me a suggestion of counting the total. Actually he wanted to know if he constitutes more than 50% of the share or not. Meh-heh Bilal, you come at third place :P

So, because I now have time to waste and do things I want to do, I did this:

The much awaited Spark Update :)

Yes. Yes. Yes.
They are finally here :D
Sorry for keeping you waiting everyone. But.my.exams.are.finally.over.now.so.I.can.waste.time.and.so.this.is.here.

And I swear to God. I don't lie when I say that my friends are getting more hilarious ever since I started the Sparks. 

For those of you who have no idea what the 'Little Sparks of Genius' is, read this.
And for those who haven't had the opportunity to read the previous updates[that are hilariousness-redefined], read this, this, this and this. And well, aslo: this, this and this one too. o.O
OI! Its not my fault my friends are so hilarious!! =O